New life?
When I moved here…
Everything changed…
I got a new life,
more friends
No arguing parents
No lying, cheating, stealing..
Drivers ed
New clothes
allowance
Im never lonely….so to speak…
This place is so new to me..but I cant help but compare everything i see to my old life…my “old” friends…
Theyre not my OLD FRIENDS….theyre my family…
I love them and will never ever go a day without wishing they were here with me..
To laugh, to watch the sunset, make random food, play x-box, sit on benches on street corners playing with pinwheels, drive around listening to Hollywood undead owl city and mayday parade, making pretend bands in the car, to eat every sno-cone flavor that exists, to swim with, to just chill and talk to in the middle of the night…
Sure Ive got friends and guys swarming me here (ugh)
But id rather be that awkward internet addict chick…
Why?
Because even though I had nothing, and a horrible home life,
In reality, i had everything i would ever need…and that was in the hearts of my best friends. It killed me to leave them and it kills me everyday to go without them..
There are reminders everywhere and sometimes i find myself thinking of what “ilyanna” or “jaycie” or “zack” or whoever would say if THEY were here to see this!
What flavor of snocone they would buy…ha
In all honesty, If you have good friends then nothing else will ever be able to hurt you. They’re everything you need..and God made sure you found your way to them for a reason.
I can have a house full of kids and be as lonely as the last dinosaur on earth..
I know what and who i need…I will never forget them and never ever go a day without thinking about them! I just cant!
I hear their voices, backflash and just….I miss them….and cant wait to return to whatever hellfire home I had.
Id give it all to go back…back to everything that mattered to me and back to everything that gave me purpose…
“Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well.”
(Source: synodik)
Tiffany Miller
Sometimes I feel as if you take your anger on the world out on me, just because you know I wont fight back! :/
Once again, you have made me feel worthless….Thanks “friend”….(:
About me
Uhm, hi :)My name is Natashia and Im just a 15 year old girl who lives in Kansas :) I've got good friends and a crazy life. so if you want to get to know me, feel free :) (Most of this description is because idk how to describe myself!)
